It's Okay

One of many things that I have become good at is avoidance.

I avoided a phone call yesterday from a very close friend. Not his fault, all me.

I didn't even listen to the message until today while I was walking back from the mailbox.
Still no check.

The beginning of the message was thinly veiled as a "in case you lost my number,
here it is again" message, to alleviate any 'reason' I could have to not call him back-(thank you).

But he went on with reserved elation in his voice, saying that alot of good things were happening, and he wanted to tell me about them.

But it was the end of the message that flipped a switch in my head.

He concluded his message with a reminder of the fact that he will be leaving, moving on, becoming the best him- very soon.
So, I better hurry.......

For a while now, weeks, months, years, depending on who you ask, there have been more than enough reasons for me to do something that I have mastered avoidance of.

There was always a "reason" "rationale" or "better option" that to do that.
Bottom line, it was NOT okay.

So, hearing him say in his message, that he was leaving soon, and wanted to talk to me, all I could think was...it IS Okay.

It is probably alot more than just Okay, but it still clicked.

It is Okay.